Questions? Questions? Questions?

Isn't it funny that the more questions you ask the more you question yourself, and when I say yourself I mean in all areas of your life. I've been asking myself one the same question for more than a year now. Honestly I have probably modified the wording a few hundred times, however in the end the question is still the same. For those who know me well know that I've been on a journey of self discovery and acceptance. I can tell you that just typing the word acceptance makes me queasy. I've recently realized that I was associating acceptance to failure so accepting things for what they are for me was accepting defeat and there was no way that I was going to loose. Ha! I wonder how many opportunities to grow came my way that I was unable to see because of my program around being right and winning. For the past 25 years I've been working on trying to convince others that being gay is not wrong. I can tell you that the frustration and pain that came along with the trying was just that frustrating and painful. It's taken 25 years however I have got it or I think. Actually it came to me that inspiring others by being and accepting ME is what is important. If you are wondering what changed well it's simple; I've let go of the Trying and have started Being no strings attached, no expectations, no trying. How amazing is that or I should say Xtramaing. Yes, that is my new word that I've adopted and I can say that everything is Xtramazing when I choose to look at it that way. My question to you is, are you Being or still trying?